Actor Radhika Apte has opened up about her most intense roles, dealing with their ''emotional hangover'', mental health and more in an Instagram Live session.
The live session with clinical psychologist Radhika Bapat on her handle @psychotherapybar put a spotlight on the immediate need for destigmatisation of mental health In India.
While discussing the new and upcoming field of ''performing arts medicine", Apte shared her experiences over the last year, the benefits of psychotherapy and gradually being able to trust her instincts and stand up for herself, irrespective of its consequences.
The session was watched by over 9,000 users and lasted 30 minutes.
"Growing up, I went to a Marathi medium school and my only exposure to cinema and theatre was local. I wasn't aware of Hollywood at the time. One movie that deeply moved me was being played at the National Film Archives of India (NFAI) and called "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" and another was the French movie "The Piano Teacher"," Apte said.
"I distinctly remember being so disturbed by the former. It was unlike any movie that I had seen -- especially the guy-loves-girl-and-wins-girl plots. This is the point at which I felt I wanted to do content that made people 'feel' intensely," she said.
Talking about her most intense roles and the "emotional hangover" of such roles, Apte said that she looked at these roles as gifts.
Apte shared her experiences over the last year, the benefits of psychotherapy and gradually being able to trust her instincts and stand up for herself."They are outlets for me to grieve or feel things that one sometimes doesn't have the time or space for. Don't we over-occupy ourselves on purpose -- because it's too scary to deal with complexities? Sure, there is always the possibility of getting carried away or overindulging in a role.
"But, I have made sure that I stay centered and I have learned to draw work boundaries, to take rejection and to understand how much to get involved. I have managed to master these things in my professional life, in the hope that one can do it in one's personal life as well."
"I have never wanted to work because I want to be famous. Whereas popularity is important for commercial success, I want to get up in the morning and feel driven to pursue a project that makes me feel good," Apte added.
"I confront my insecurities and don't shy away from that brutal honesty. I have made this a rule now, before saying "yes" to a project, I should want for it to give me deep meaning and purpose. I should feel the excitement and urgency of wanting to wake up at 5 am and eagerly go on the set," she said.
About the Covid-19 pandemic, the 'Andhdhun' actress said that it has taught us lessons in uncertainty.
"What is this fake sense of security that we all have anyway?" she asked. "Uncertainty is certain. But emotional stability, irrespective of professional certainty or uncertainty is most important. Therapy has helped me greatly and people should carve time to deal with their mental health."
Bapat, a clinical psychologist, who hosted the chat, said: "I have seen all of Apte's work, and I think she is an extraordinary performer. Someone who as early 2003 was consumed and devoted with perfervid loyalism and allegiance to excellence in acting, be it in theatre, small production or a big production."